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Monday, 18 June 2007

realisations..

was just thinking abt a certain thing just now while walking out from ETI to the entrance of nee soon camp - and i finally realised sth, sth tt i shld have known better for the past 18-19yrs.. tt sometimes when it's time to let go, it's just no choice i have to let go... thr's no pt holding on to sth when it's alr slowly, but surely, slipping out of ur hands - destined to be free frm ur hands...

and on the same line, thinking abt this particular issue, it finally dawned on me why it's better for me to not get a gf, for now at least.. was just thinking and thinking abt this issue [which has nth to do w bgr or anyth even vaguely related to it] and hey, thanx to this guy i finally just realised.. you probably wun knw who you are nor will you likely be reading this but anyway, just a big thanks for making me finally understand the reason why i'm still single - it's to protect myself, to prevent myself from getting hurt and also causing pain to the other party..a sad discovery but gotta admit it's a part of my character i so agree with..

ahh sometimes i just hate it when i start to develop feelings for a particular event/thing/etc and start to invest my emotions and totally immerse myself into this particular sth, and *poof* it just disappears from my life.. ok maybe not tt serious but when u start to feel tt a certain sth is part of ur life and it just somehow no longer remains thr, it just feels weird... and empty :S

ok, with posts like this, i can understand why xingyan comments tt my blog posts still give off the -depressed- vibes... haha.. i'm ok lah, really am, just tt these few wks/mths been so much of self-realisations it gets a lil' uneasy and insecure just trying to cope w them.. but i guess it's gd to knw/discovery more abt myself.. :]

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