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Friday, 28 December 2007

random boy..

saw a cute lil' boy just now on the bus, sitting on his mum's lap.. and somehow was reminded of myself.. hmm nope, not coz the boy was cute but just kinda thot of many stuff..

just somehow made me think of how life was last time, and the effects/impact that have lasted till now and those which have shaped my development..

just that many what-ifs flooded my mind, some had-it-beens and even more whys..

much of how/why/what i am today is a result of my formative years..

21:37; The Pianist'

Thursday, 27 December 2007

shopping..

yaays!!

finally am done with christmas shopping.. well, just left a coupla things to go.. haha ok maybe i'm a bit lagg since 25dec is alr over but hey! christmas lasts for a full 12 days yeahh? :):)

and i bought myself a pair of leather shoes, a long sleeved shirt, a tie and a pair of jeans.. oh gosh imagine how much i have spent for the whole of this mth..

but, aft a yr of work and sweat, i guess it's worth it! :) hehh

21:41; The Pianist'

Wednesday, 26 December 2007

hey dude.. am glad we had tt nice chat the other day.. hmm thanx for being willing to thrash out everyth, being most honest abt everyth.. just great tt finally got to ask you qns which have been bothering me for quite some time all along, and to once again just come clean abt everyth and put things back in perspective.. thanx dude :)

yeap i promised you tt's the last convo abt tt and i promised to move on from thr.. i knw it's not gonna be easy so do pardon me if i lapse into the same abyss occasionally.. help me along when you knw i'm in tt horrible state again yeah?

time to move on.. ahh at least i'm glad i settled sth which matters a lot to me.. guess tt just means dealing with another one.. may i have the wisdom to handle it well, in a tactful and sensitive manner..

:]

23:13; The Pianist'

Saturday, 22 December 2007

Youth Alive

有时候我会迷惘，
有时候失去方向，
每天为世界而忙，
总把神的话遗忘。

不管风雨有多大，
不管路有多漫长，
主时时提醒着我，
叫我回到他的身旁。

Youth Alive! 燃起我心中的火。
Youth Alive! 靠主我从新得力!
做主基督的精兵。

一生与主同行！
一生与主同行！
一生我与我主同行！

13:24; The Pianist'

best friends..

and then one fine day came along, and you no longer dare to develop best friends - coz sth always happens from thr..

01:14; The Pianist'

Friday, 21 December 2007

i hate it when i get defensive - when i just shut down all my senses and feelings, and turn into a spikeball..

the surface may look ok but i know it's just empty and crap talk..

i'm sorry, i just duno why i've become like this..

20:38; The Pianist'

Sunday, 16 December 2007

*shrugs*

i duno wat's up with me recently..

perpetually sian most of the time, unwilling to share abt wat bothers me, and just wanna keep everything inside..

you know, there comes a time when you dun even feel like telling your best friend anyth.. i'm sorry mydear, it's just been weird recently..

haizz.. i guess i'm sick. nope, not physically and definitely not mentally.. emotionally i guess..

i miss having someone to hug.
i miss having someone to take care of.
i miss having someone to call whenever i pick up the phone.
i miss having someone arnd me all the time even when i whine like nobody's business.

and tmr's the Youth Alive! camp.. so it's been 2 yrs already since Rock N Role.. the 2005 camp which meant a lot to me in various ways.. there's so many things which i miss and get all nostalgic abt.. the camp which gave me chance to plan stuff with a grp of ppl willing to put in all their heart and soul, the camp which gave me a lot of encouragement and love amongst others, the camp which brought back to me my X nian peng you, the camp which i wld nv forget organising and discussing prgs, the camp which just had so many stuff in it..

i s'pose this sounds like an incoherent post..

20:22; The Pianist'

Saturday, 15 December 2007

smiles..

There is nothing more deceptive than a smile. And no one knows this better than the people who hide behind them. Some flash their teeth as a polite warning to their enemies. Some put on grinning faces to keep their tears from falling. Others wear silly grins to mask their fears. But then, there is that rare smile that is actually genuine. It's the smile of a person who knows his troubles will soon be over.

[Taken from Desperate Housewives, Season 4 Episode 2]

22:13; The Pianist'

questions

From the moment we wake up in the morning till our heads hit the pillow at night, our lives are filled with questions. Most are easily answered, and soon forgotten. But some are much harder to ask, because we are so afraid of the answer.

And what happens when we ask ourselves the hard question and get the answer we've been hoping for?
Well, that's when happiness begins.

[Taken from Desperate Housewives, Season 3 Episode 22]

02:07; The Pianist'

Friday, 14 December 2007

life is fragile

3 familes. 3 different fates.

3 fathers. 3 different types of cancer.

One, his father died when he was still very young.
One, his father was diagnosed terminal but is still now going strong.
One, his father just passed away.

What can I say?

the uncertainty of life.

23:36; The Pianist'

Sunday, 9 December 2007

stan chart run 2007

00:24; The Pianist'

Friday, 7 December 2007

finally..

and i survived exercise bear..

i couldnt have dreamt abt 7dec2007 ever arriving but finally, aft so long it's here!! the bookout aft a whole stretch of exercises.. i really duno how i ever survived.. wat with the inexperienced ex cub, with the horrors of deployment and seeing the true colours of the platoon and their whole grumpiness and uncooperativeness, not forgetting the repeated horrors of shellscrape digging in ex gemini and the whole long stretch of waiting for break camp, and then running the 10km just before ex bear and thew hole long days and long nights gone thru in ex bear, with the packing up of concertina wire [which we didnt even use -.-]..

ok enough of the ramblings.. am just relieved that ex bear is over - signifies that the whole crazy stretch of 3 wks of consecutive exercises is over, finally.. *phew* hmm, learnt much more abt my section and the whole platoon as well, realised many things i nv knew, understood certain ppl better, and of coz seen the dark and ugly sides of many..

there was definitely a significant progressive improvement in the stretch of exercises and ohwells, the end of it all just marks the opening of a new chapter - operationally ready life.. nope, not the ORD kind of operationally ready but the ready to take on the operational role in the battalion, in 3 div..

with that, i've got one more week to block leave!! and then youth camp on 17th to 21st, COS duty on 18th, christmas celebration on 22nd, COS duty on christmas, integrated audit on 28th, solomon knights outing to east coast on 28th and subsequently till 29th.. guess i'll be real late then...

and it's time to start reading Revelations! in preparation for nxt yr's lessons as well as part of my class' aim to finish the new testament in less than a yr.. gotta keep to plan then..

19:25; The Pianist'

Sunday, 2 December 2007

stan chart 2007

ahhh and i am back and alive and kicking aft the 10km stan chart run... bro was suggesting going for 21km nxt yr.. hahaha.. see how lah..

later gg out with siblings again and then book in le..

ex bear here i come!

13:12; The Pianist'

Saturday, 1 December 2007

nice wkend

yaaays.. finally this bookout has come.. waited for such a long time for it..

been a great weekend so far, and today was awesome.. dingyi's wedding's item went well =) =) was sooo super glad and relieved at tt.. and really thankful tt it was well received by everyone.. the food was really nice!! haha oops :X

and aft the wedding, went to cathay with gracey sy xc isaaclim corrine and lamed arnd for a while before ending up being pigs at ben&jerry's.. hehh.. totally a sinful day today lah... ate so damn a lot at dingyi's wedding and still had ice cream aft tt.. totally disgraceful :P

yest nite was a productive one - settling the comm list [finally!], discussing with stelly some prgs for nxt yr, just chatting a lil' here and thr, and i managed to finish my somewhere out there!!! FINALLY.. haha.. :P

and with cub and gemini both exercises down, now's left with exercise bear.. rawrrrs.. 4D3N.. hope everyth goes well and then my life shld be getting easier, i hope..

23:16; The Pianist'

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