'But Jesus would not entrust Himself to them, for he knew all man... for he knew what was in a man.' John 2:24-25

Disillusionment means that there are not more false judgments in life. To be undeceived by disillusionment may leave us cynical and unkindly severe in our judgment of others, but the disillusionment which comes from God brings us to the place where we see men and women as they really are, and yet there is no cynicism, we have no stinging bitter things to say. Many of the cruel things in life spring from the fact that we suffer from illusions. We are not true to one another as facts; we are true only to our ideas of one another. Everything is either delightful and fine, or mean and dastardly, according to our idea.

The refusal to be disillusioned is the cause of much of the suffering in human life. It works in this way - if we love a human being and do not love God, we demand of him every perfection and every rectitude, and when we do not get it we become cruel and vindictive; we are demanding of a human being that which he or she cannot give. There is only one Being Who can satisfy the last aching abyss of the human heart, and that is the lord Jesus Christ. Why our Lord is apparently so severe regarding every human relationship is because He knows that every relationship not based on loyalty to Himself will end in disaster. Our Lord trusted no man, yet He was never suspicious, never bitter. Our Lord's confidence in God and in what His grace could do for any man, was so perfect that He despaired of no one. If our trust is placed in human beings, we shall end in despairing of everyone.

Been on so many overseas trip I lost track of time. Phuket, Bratislava, Batam, KL, Bintan, Egypt. Coupled with reservist, I think I've spent more nights out of home than at night. Nonetheless, through it all, thank God for leading me through every trip and keeping me, together with my family and friends, safe throughout.

And after so long, I've finally had the chance to sit down at the piano and just play to my heart's content. If that isn't the number 1 enjoyment in life, I don't know what else is.

Anyhow, played through all the youth camp theme songs and in a span of 30mins, I find myself transported to the december of each year, from 2002 all the way to 2009. That's quickly recollecting memories from the past 8 years.

2002: 步步随主行

2003: Maranatha

2004: Go Fish

2005: Rock n Role

2006: G-man

2007: Youth Alive

2008: iCom

2009: SOS

Snippets of each camp come to mind, and now I stand at this point, finding myself no longer classified as a 'youth', but more of a 'youth mentor'. 岁月不饶人 eh. Time will keep moving and the seconds just keep ticking. The only way to cope with it is to grow up and grow through each experience, learning from what we can and then move on. All camps had their significance in my life at the different stages of my life - of course some camps were closer to heart than the others. Still, always reminding myself not to get stuck in that mentality for too long - it's alright to think back and reminisce and look back, but that's about the closest I can get to reality.

Looking at how much I've grown through the years, I thank God for His presence and strength, and His many ways in which He used me. And thanking God for everything, 感谢神赐路旁玫瑰，感谢神玫瑰有刺。

And just so I can fulfill my musicophilic-pseudo-musician tendencies/desires, I've realised that the camp lyrics for 2005 2007 2009 have quite a bit of similarities, and that the most popular key for composing camp theme songs seems to be F major.

Alright, anti-climatic ending. =D