这，这条路怎么走？
我，难道还做不够？
你，会让我回头，靠着你从此以后？

Just handed up Public Law assignment. Crazy essay indeed. Well, there's only myself to blame for starting late. But I was fully aware and mentally braced myself for that. At least I got to do other stuff during this recess week instead of just sitting at home the whole day to figure out the essay - which was pretty much what I did last sem for Property Law assignment. It was stay home and mug the whole day away. Crazy stuff too. Well, got a B+ for that assignment which I was really pleasantly surprised. But if I had to spend that kind of time to get that kinda grades, I'm not too sure if I'm actually keen on that. Speaking of which, my overall grade for Property Law was a B-, which still befuddles me till today. I probably did really badly for my final exam and that's something I don't quite understand. Frankly, after surviving 3 semesters in law school, I'm still not too sure what study method works. Ah well, at least this sem's modules are all pretty weird so they're nothing conventional.

Anyway, I digress. Where was I? Oh right, the recess week that just passed. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'm not willing to work for my grades. It's just that I don't want to spend my whole life as an undergraduate mugging away. Alright, yes I know the most important thing for now is my studies (yes mum, I'm writing this here for you to see so you'd know I know). Still, I have other things in my life I wanna pursue too. My passion in church, in choir, in music, and a few more others. All these calls for time management and a really good balance. I probably suck quite a bit at both, but by the grace of God, I'm still surviving and still quite managing.

Sorry for the out-of-the-norm blogpost today. Just felt like rambling somewhere somehow. Probably the assignment killed all my brain cells and I just wanted to do something defiant. Anyhow, whatever the case, it's been some time I've been here dearest blog. So much things have occurred and happened in my life, and I've had new realisations about life, about myself, about friends, about people and about stuff. It's been quite a pretty crazy few weeks. But as usual, as with all such crazy times, it's a good period of moulding, learning, and growing. And I thank God for bringing me through thus far. It's really amazing (and scary too at times) how God uses various things to remind myself about His grace and His providence.

Alrights, feeling way better now from the assignment overhang. Yes I've been awake for the past 24 hours, and it's amazing I didn't faint just now. I really thought I was gonna collapse anytime. Grabbed a bite and a drink and hopefully things will be better. Lecture in 30mins time and heading home in 2.5hrs time. Choir in the evening again. :)

Listening to Kenny G Christmas album which I bought years ago. Saxophone + strings + keyboard = awesome. Reminds me of my dream to play the saxophone one day. Was aiming for that when I'm 30 years old. Haha. As for strings... oh well. Wen Han was nice enough to pass me his violin and teach me how to play. That was really like in 2008 or something I THINK. I was just too lazy to practice and too playful to be focused. And then, just a few weeks back, I had another crazy piano idea. Dreaming too much for my own good? Nah, I guess we all have dreams and we have such random moments that creep into our lives which makes it much more interesting and fulfilling? And then there's a few more other music-related ideals, hopes and dreams...

Alright, setting those aside for now and coming back to life ahead. It's the start of the 2nd half of my 4th semester in law school. And the completion would mark the halfway mark through law school. Time flies indeed.

But I'm glad I'm going through life this way and doing various things that I like. :) Giving thanks for everything that has happened, that has not happened. :) Feeling a sense of wholesomeness once more. :)

Been on so many overseas trip I lost track of time. Phuket, Bratislava, Batam, KL, Bintan, Egypt. Coupled with reservist, I think I've spent more nights out of home than at night. Nonetheless, through it all, thank God for leading me through every trip and keeping me, together with my family and friends, safe throughout.

And after so long, I've finally had the chance to sit down at the piano and just play to my heart's content. If that isn't the number 1 enjoyment in life, I don't know what else is.

Anyhow, played through all the youth camp theme songs and in a span of 30mins, I find myself transported to the december of each year, from 2002 all the way to 2009. That's quickly recollecting memories from the past 8 years.

2002: 步步随主行

2003: Maranatha

2004: Go Fish

2005: Rock n Role

2006: G-man

2007: Youth Alive

2008: iCom

2009: SOS

Snippets of each camp come to mind, and now I stand at this point, finding myself no longer classified as a 'youth', but more of a 'youth mentor'. 岁月不饶人 eh. Time will keep moving and the seconds just keep ticking. The only way to cope with it is to grow up and grow through each experience, learning from what we can and then move on. All camps had their significance in my life at the different stages of my life - of course some camps were closer to heart than the others. Still, always reminding myself not to get stuck in that mentality for too long - it's alright to think back and reminisce and look back, but that's about the closest I can get to reality.

Looking at how much I've grown through the years, I thank God for His presence and strength, and His many ways in which He used me. And thanking God for everything, 感谢神赐路旁玫瑰，感谢神玫瑰有刺。

And just so I can fulfill my musicophilic-pseudo-musician tendencies/desires, I've realised that the camp lyrics for 2005 2007 2009 have quite a bit of similarities, and that the most popular key for composing camp theme songs seems to be F major.

Alright, anti-climatic ending. =D