Sunday, 29 July 2007
,
梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦
02:14; The Pianist'
Saturday, 28 July 2007
What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do
02:28; The Pianist'
Sunday, 22 July 2007
just typing..
hmms so jm's flown off to taiwan, alr arrived in taiwan abt 1hr 20mins ago.. just hope tt everyth will be fine for him and tt he can take it ba..
as for me, another 4 more wks in ETI STW EP before i get my posting i guess.. hmmms wonder how things will be like.. ahh it's sunday and i am not in church - doing guard duty in camp... ohwells..
anyways, was looking at the dogs at my trng area and i realised tt hey, even dogs will try to fight for attention - much more so for humans.. yeahh just a random thot ba, we all want attention at some point in time or just want ppl to notice us or to simply appreciate and acknowledge our presence/actions..
ahh ok random.. hmm must be feeling weird to knw tt jm's not in singapore.. just 3 wks... 12aug and he'll be back.. go fetch him anyone? haha..
okok shall go back to slacking and stoning.. may the days/wks pass quickly...
as for me, another 4 more wks in ETI STW EP before i get my posting i guess.. hmmms wonder how things will be like.. ahh it's sunday and i am not in church - doing guard duty in camp... ohwells..
anyways, was looking at the dogs at my trng area and i realised tt hey, even dogs will try to fight for attention - much more so for humans.. yeahh just a random thot ba, we all want attention at some point in time or just want ppl to notice us or to simply appreciate and acknowledge our presence/actions..
ahh ok random.. hmm must be feeling weird to knw tt jm's not in singapore.. just 3 wks... 12aug and he'll be back.. go fetch him anyone? haha..
okok shall go back to slacking and stoning.. may the days/wks pass quickly...
08:17; The Pianist'
Saturday, 14 July 2007
random
都过了那么久，有些东西有了重大的变化，而有些非物质的_____没变，
我想大概是在事情发生后，短期内无法完全接受，而导致当初的复杂，早期的尴尬，以及接二连三的复发。老实的说，过了一年半，我不会否认我还对从前有所挂念，但我敢说，现在的挂念与早时的想念有蛮大的不同。以前只是幼稚，不成熟的想法导致所存有的想念；现在的挂念是因为成长想通了而感受到一定的空虚。无论前者或后者，困难的地方就在于我需要说服自己任何理由都是不合理的，就算是累了也不可以放弃。确实不容易，但我已经很尽力的在尝试了，我真的有在尝试。
我想大概是在事情发生后，短期内无法完全接受，而导致当初的复杂，早期的尴尬，以及接二连三的复发。老实的说，过了一年半，我不会否认我还对从前有所挂念，但我敢说，现在的挂念与早时的想念有蛮大的不同。以前只是幼稚，不成熟的想法导致所存有的想念；现在的挂念是因为成长想通了而感受到一定的空虚。无论前者或后者，困难的地方就在于我需要说服自己任何理由都是不合理的，就算是累了也不可以放弃。确实不容易，但我已经很尽力的在尝试了，我真的有在尝试。
02:16; The Pianist'
think tank
been 2 wks in ETI - EP being a plant engr, AKA planter.. dealing with heavy machinery/plants like dozer [bulldozer], shovel, excavator tt kind of stuff.. yeapp really kind of fun esp when i'm getting the hang of operating the dozer :) hehh.. tons fun dozing arnd, and dozing off too when zuobo-ing..
realise tt every bk out i just stone at home, stone arnd, stone at the com, just let time pass and refuse to slp.. kindof duno wat to do.. hmms.. solomon knights each wrote a note and then put inside an empty bottle which i held, meaning tt i wun be empty w them.. but somehow, just somehow, feeling kindof empty rite now.. dun really knw why..
hmm just wondering, why ppl spend so much time agonising over frenships, and getting hurt and frustrated over all the human r/ships and frenships.. i guess thr's sth tt i will always agree w the old folks, no matter wat happens, it's always still the family tt matters most, no matter how much it may feel like otherwise at any point of time in life..
a person's history, past and memory very much determines the person's identity..so no matter how much u may hate ur past, ur experiences, ur history.. iznt tt precisely wat moulded u into who/how u are today?
random thots jumbled up in my mind.. just kinda wired up wrongly somehow in my brain... braindead.yet.just.feeling.kind.of.weird, somehow..
got to interact more w a particular person in camp.. got to tok to him more each nite and found some stuff in common.. and then i realised yet again how empty i felt.. the once again familiar void.. somehow, just somehow..
ok am getting vaguely incoherent and slightly gg down the mood-o-meter but barely anywhr near depressed... just the wires in my mind having a tough time untangling the already highly coiled and twisted and intertwined neurones floating arnd..
spking edmund now..
realise tt every bk out i just stone at home, stone arnd, stone at the com, just let time pass and refuse to slp.. kindof duno wat to do.. hmms.. solomon knights each wrote a note and then put inside an empty bottle which i held, meaning tt i wun be empty w them.. but somehow, just somehow, feeling kindof empty rite now.. dun really knw why..
hmm just wondering, why ppl spend so much time agonising over frenships, and getting hurt and frustrated over all the human r/ships and frenships.. i guess thr's sth tt i will always agree w the old folks, no matter wat happens, it's always still the family tt matters most, no matter how much it may feel like otherwise at any point of time in life..
a person's history, past and memory very much determines the person's identity..so no matter how much u may hate ur past, ur experiences, ur history.. iznt tt precisely wat moulded u into who/how u are today?
random thots jumbled up in my mind.. just kinda wired up wrongly somehow in my brain... braindead.yet.just.feeling.kind.of.weird, somehow..
got to interact more w a particular person in camp.. got to tok to him more each nite and found some stuff in common.. and then i realised yet again how empty i felt.. the once again familiar void.. somehow, just somehow..
ok am getting vaguely incoherent and slightly gg down the mood-o-meter but barely anywhr near depressed... just the wires in my mind having a tough time untangling the already highly coiled and twisted and intertwined neurones floating arnd..
spking edmund now..
00:02; The Pianist'
Sunday, 8 July 2007
Transformers..
just back from watching transformers with my 2nd bro and my sis.. hmm had wanted to blog more but just kinda braindead for now.. maybe tmr..
there's more than meets the eye
外表不代表内心
there's more than meets the eye
外表不代表内心
03:10; The Pianist'
Sunday, 1 July 2007
to be a better mann..
Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame
Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around
I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around
Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame
Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around
I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around
Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man
21:10; The Pianist'
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