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Saturday, 14 July 2007

think tank

been 2 wks in ETI - EP being a plant engr, AKA planter.. dealing with heavy machinery/plants like dozer [bulldozer], shovel, excavator tt kind of stuff.. yeapp really kind of fun esp when i'm getting the hang of operating the dozer :) hehh.. tons fun dozing arnd, and dozing off too when zuobo-ing..

realise tt every bk out i just stone at home, stone arnd, stone at the com, just let time pass and refuse to slp.. kindof duno wat to do.. hmms.. solomon knights each wrote a note and then put inside an empty bottle which i held, meaning tt i wun be empty w them.. but somehow, just somehow, feeling kindof empty rite now.. dun really knw why..

hmm just wondering, why ppl spend so much time agonising over frenships, and getting hurt and frustrated over all the human r/ships and frenships.. i guess thr's sth tt i will always agree w the old folks, no matter wat happens, it's always still the family tt matters most, no matter how much it may feel like otherwise at any point of time in life..

a person's history, past and memory very much determines the person's identity..so no matter how much u may hate ur past, ur experiences, ur history.. iznt tt precisely wat moulded u into who/how u are today?

random thots jumbled up in my mind.. just kinda wired up wrongly somehow in my brain... braindead.yet.just.feeling.kind.of.weird, somehow..

got to interact more w a particular person in camp.. got to tok to him more each nite and found some stuff in common.. and then i realised yet again how empty i felt.. the once again familiar void.. somehow, just somehow..

ok am getting vaguely incoherent and slightly gg down the mood-o-meter but barely anywhr near depressed... just the wires in my mind having a tough time untangling the already highly coiled and twisted and intertwined neurones floating arnd..

spking edmund now..

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